Chemistry Night: Part Two

-I feel like I never actually believed in Jesus, or in Christianity, Steve intoned.

Shock, disbelief -What?

-I have actually felt the same way for quite a while, Paul added.

What the Fuck?-What do you mean?

-I lack any sort of strong belief in any of the major tenets of Christianity, I feel no affinity for Jesus at all.

My alcohol addled mind reeled, I stumbled. By this point we had come to the stone steps of the park near Paul's house. We stood and sat in fits and starts as the discussion unfolded.

-I know that these Christians who surround us are bastards, but that does not mean that Christianity is flawed or anything. I mean, damn it guys. Look, what do we do that makes us such sinners in the eyes of this school? We drink, but fuck it Christ had wine... we have not even gotten drunk. We don't have to destroy our religion just because some pricks have a problem with the image of the bottle.

-I don't think that's it... have you ever thought about Christ? I am not convinced.

Paul had taken the lead on trying to show me the wisdom of their new proposition. I started to cry. These guys must know what hell meant. Hell. I knew what they meant, or thought I did, but just because some assholes judged us did not mean shit. I reiterated this as many times and ways as I knew how. Why abandon religion?

-I honestly worry for your souls. I said doing an awful job hiding the tears that were streaming down my face. -Jesus still saves, we are still on the right side of the righteous divide.

The whole thing just came as a shock to me, I had known non-Christians before but they had just not been adequately introduced to the beauty of grace and the peace of salvation. No one who had seen the light of God could ever turn away, not without being illogical fucks. How then could my perfectly reasonable friends... I don't understand, I must be missing something.